swimming with turtles and some guidance

[zig]

hey thanks kd - and 2 x 4 all you want. it's not like i can't tell that i am sort of "flying high" here a bit. wondering if i am going to crash any time soon - i actually don't think so, but who knows.

the other day i was telling a friend that each person really gets what they can handle, and that's why some peoples sitches are so much worse than others. and suddenly i don't feel so afraid of what is coming or not coming - i just KNOW now that i can handle it in the long run - that i'm up to the task.

i've never had this kind of feeling before in my entire life...

about the egg shells? Just sweep the floor...

i love this - but i do have to temper my impulsive side - it's too impulsive and always got me into trouble - finally i'm beginning to understand how it hurt the people i love and just don't want to be that way any longer

You do not need to acknowledge that you THINK you know why he abruptly ended the convo. He simply ended the convo. It is YOU who decided what his reason was.

you're right - i was mind-reading. thanks for pointing that out. yes that makes a lot of sense. got to curb my own "sensitive" side here!!


The point is, for a moment, I walked on the egg shells. Then once I realized I was stumbling, I swept the floor and finished the convo on a high note. And from there, I am thinking nothing more of it.


thanks for telling me what you did there- actually my first thought when i read that was - that's what i do with s when we get into difficult arguments - and then i feel even more triggered off because i'm already walking eggshells with h and then when i do it with s, it feels even worse.

so no more egg shell walking for me.

about s strategizing - i'm not seriously making anything of it - it was more about telling an amusing story here. it just made me smile. and your;e right about the kids sharing so differently with each parent when they are separated. i have noticed it all along, because s talks to me a lot, but h is just now becoming aware of it

Just reminders that DB is about what works for us and being true to ourselves in positive ways.

okay - not being over-sensitive here, i hope, but are you trying to tell me very very nicely that i am somehow not being completely true to myself? if you are, i'm really really okay with that, but would love some clarification - as in pointing out to me exactly in which way - sometimes it's hard to see where one is at oneself, and the best thing about this board is that you get to find out before you mess up too much

it's funny kd - about the expectations thing - i don't really have any right now. i've been posting about all these little positive things that are happening - but each time they happen, i am genuinely surprised. heck - it's not like i've forgotten what he said last saturday.

the only expectations i have are that i am going to be great, and get through this not just intact, but way way better than i ever was before. if i had to say what my best skill was, it's that i never do anything half-a$$ed. so i do totally expect that when i get to the other side of this, i am going to be great either way. i have a long way to go, but not as long as i did before, and so the journey doesn't feel so hard any more, because i know i'm well on my way

thanks kd - you always "straighten' me out every once in a while and get me on track again!!

zig