actually i know i bought the thing - but i don't really know if i am actually going to wear it:) it's not particularly skimpy - or anything - i don't know, maybe it's the colors ... we'll see.
and yes - i DO feel good - just finally decided that if i am on this crazy path, i can be miserable all the time as i have been for years, or i can just decide to fly high any chance i get.
the idea of being able to laugh and just be delighted at any little thing WHILE one is still hurting badly - it intrigues me. i want to keep finding out whether i can be really good at it.
i still sob occasionally and feel terrible, but i'm finding that it's much more fun to get that draggy part over with and get back to laughing again, every chance i get.
i've been reading and listening to a lot of LOA stuff and the idea is that if you keep focusing on the good stuff - and if you don't have a heck of a lot of those to focus on, then find any tiny little thing and focus on that and even exaggerate it in your mind till you just feel a bit better. i think it works - so little things like the cake , or s covered in marzipan - and i think it's not so different from GAL and DB'ing in general - what they promote, i mean...
me 46 H 38 M10yrs T 11 S10 BD ow 8/11 h filed 9/25/12
"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
