Just working through this in my head...roll with me. I just had a conversation with a friend telling her the latest development. It got me to thinking that maybe H thinks we can't come back from his A. Definitely the old me would have made his life H#LL. And he's definitely ashamed of it. I know there's nothing I can do to prove to him otherwise.
I told him this morning that it was funny that he used to tell me all the time to let him in, and when I eventually did (or what I thought was letting him in) he had an affair, and now won't let me in. What a turn of events!
I did remember what I said to him about OW that made me think something was just not quite right with that. I said something about goint to church, and he said he was so ashamed because of his A. I said but you haven't stopped. That's when he told me "things had changed with that". It's like he just won't come out and admit that they might be over. What does he think I'm going to do beg and plead at that point? Not likely. The new and improved but back-to-some-of-the-good-parts-of-the-old me, knows that for sure.
