LRT - Checking Progress

[LostIn407]

I don't believe she sees this as a game. She has made no indication that we are working on R or she even wants to do it at this point. I have made no requests to work on R or talk about R. I don't know if I want to do it at this point.

Only thing said is that she is going through something and is enjoying the independence. She no longer asks me for anything and I don't offer.

There isn't jack I can do about that. I have to let her go on this journey. And she knows what the ramifications of her actions will be.

Two months ago, could I say I would be ok without my W? Not a chance. I was in bad shape.

Today, I know that I do not need her to be happy.


My W and I disconnected over the past few years. I couldn't see it until this happened, but now I see it clearly. I was more concerned with providing for the family than anything else. No vacations, wouldn't take off work, didn't do anything for myself, etc. I was a slave to providing.

I lost sight of who I was. Take my W and Ds out of the equation and I have zero memories of anything fun I did in the past 5 years. I remember turning down countless invitations from buddies until it got to the point I wasn't invited anymore because they knew I would say no.


I don't think this is about me and W getting back together right now. This is about me and making me happier and better. I plan events for me. If the W or a buddy wants to come, cool. If not, I am still going. I am no longer going to be dependent on others for my happiness.