Feeling empty today. Maybe it's he rejection that I'm feeling. Plus, W might be coming back tomorrow. I worry about seeing her because of the rejection I get from her. I had a good mindset at the beginning of the month but then things went south. I had a great attitude. I was acting as if everything was going to work out eventually. Even led to going on a mini vacation together where everyone had fun. But when we returned W wanted to get away from me and seems to be cold and irritated at everything I do. Except when she really needs me. I miss being paid attention to. I miss being worried about and asked how my day was & listened to. I need to get that back. I need to get that attitude back where I'm feeling good about myself and confident. I feel it when I'm with our D. I need, I need, I need. Maybe that's what I really must work on. ?
The psychology is injected during your interaction and thoughts of her. I completely understand. Try to have almost no communications for the next three weeks and take care of yourself and any matters that you must attend to. See how you feel then.
When you inject her back, and perhaps her indifferent attitude, sceptism, perhaps looking at you like your dead because she is off with someone else. In the current interaction you are being used, you know it and you do not like it. It will raise doubts about self, insecurity and create lowered self esteem.
As they say, you can't overanalize this stuff, it will paralyze you. But you have put the 2 and 2 together behind her and it makes you feel bad.
Take care of yourself and take some advice from some of the db vets.
