Make Yourself

[purgatory]

I could say I'm not in purgatory anymore.... but then no-one would know who is posting this!! lol.

Lot's going on, it's been keeping me busy and away from the boards. I hope that as the dust settles, I can get back on here and return the support that has been given so generously to me over these months.

A re-cap, so no one has to go hunting through tons of posts:
* H moved out last August. MC started, and ILBNILWY cam the day after Thanksgiving.
* H confessed that OW interest was my BFF in January, she admitted to having same feelings (haven't spoken to her since then.)
* Separation papers were started.

Currently:
* H is leaving for AFG in a week. Will return in August 2013.
* He told my S6 that we are getting divorced, and then when he returns, he won't be living with me and the kids
* I am looking for a job.
* I am spending so much time with my kids! S6 has asked a few questions about the D, and I answer as best as possible. S2 is struggling with attachment issues and has a meltdown when anyone leaves the house (gee, wonder why that is?!)
* I have accepted that the D will happen when he returns, no use fighting it. He has made it very clear what his intentions are and he has not wavered from them since last August. I've also been told that he intends to start a R with OW when he returns... can't wait to watch that one blow up in both their faces!!
* I'm focused on planning my life as a single mom, and especially having no help over this next year... it will take a little while to get into the routine- but I got this!!
* He's complimented my weight loss and instead of thinking that he's changing his mind (like I used to do), I laugh to myself knowing that some one else will get to enjoy it!!
* Just got back from Vegas!! So much fun!!


I'm comfortable with where I am. I know I still have daily struggles with OW triggers and dealing with the stress of deployment, job hunting and learning to be a single mom. I never would have thought that in 11 months, since he moved out, that I would be able to say that I'm at peace with my life....so I can only imagine what the next few months can bring!

**Anyone know where my title came from??**