W came over for dinner last night. First time we have sat down with the Ds for a meal (not including events) since May 4.

After dinner D13 took D3 and D4 outside to play leaving W and I alone. More good conversation and joking. We talked about going out of town together next weekend and other trips we would like to do. We have another trip planned for August already. We have a trip planned for October. She seems happy to plan trips in the future together.

She talked more about her tonight. How since she turned 30 things have been different for her. Her sex drive is higher. She talked about how it is nice making her own money and not depending on someone else. She mentioned again how I should sleep with someone else. I always brush it off, but WTF. Is she saying this so she won't feel guilty for doing it to me or is she saying it because she wants me to move on?

She said that she was worried about me when this first happened, but she can see how I am in a much better place now. I am happier and more confident.

We talked about my promotion. I told her I was going to buy a car, something nice. She said she wanted to go with me when I did that. I told her I was going to go all out on a new bed, king size, high thread count sheets, etc. I flirted with her that I would give her the option to be my first in the new bed. She flirted back.

We finished two bottles of wine. She stayed until around 10 and helped me clean up despite me telling her I would take care of everything. Just hugs and kisses on the lips.

CURRENT FEARS
Friend-zone

I am approaching this like we are dating again for the first time. I have no expectations of what to receive physically. I have no timeline.

My buddy says I need to start treating it as such and start being a d!ck, no more Mr. Nice Guy. She already thinks we are best friends and I need to remind her at times that I want more.

Sticking to my plan of GAL. When I don't have the Ds, I do something for me. Slowing starting to text the W a little more, simple stuff asking how her day is going.


M-40
W-33
D3, D4, SD13
T 9 YEARS
M 5 YEARS
ILYBINILWY APRIL 2012