so defeated and scared silly

[scaredsilly]

thanks grace, zig, and brit.

i know you're right in enjoying it with him and really, for him. i will follow grace's advice and see how i feel about it as time goes by. the graduation is not until dec.

i really don't feel i can call her. i don't think she would answer the phone when she saw my caller i.d. afterall, she's not responded to my text and emails.

a friend of mine, who's a psychologist, advised me to do as grace suggested: ask him to find out if his D really wants me there. that way, if she doesn't and he does, the conflict is between the two of them and not between him and me or her and i.

i think i would ask him, also, about whether or not the rest of his family want me there, too. may as well have that conflict be between him and all of them and get me out of that, too.

sadly, most of the conflict between me and her has been reinforced by him confiding in her in an inappropriate way during the initial period of his bomb (and maybe more since, i don't know). rather immature and selfish of him, in my opinion. but, at least, he will now have to deal with the fallout from it, too. maybe he'll grow some because of it?

i think i just put a positve spin an a negative! ;-)

thank you all for helping me. you're great cyber friends!