I think what set me off is that I know I have abandonment issues. As my MC identified on monday they have arisen time and again in previous relationships. As a result in my marriage, despite trying not to allow my issues to impinge I now believe I used passive aggression to attempt to stop her leaving. This probably contributed to our current sitch and is definitely something I want to sort out (hopefully better than I did earlier today!).
Am I worried that she is completely gone and is only allowing me to stay in the house out of guilt? Yes. Can I do much about that? No. What can I do? Stop beating myself up and try and improve myself. It may not bring my marriage back from the brink but it has to be a good thing. I put my wedding ring back on to try it out earlier. It actually felt a bit odd but took about 30 seconds to start feeling normal again. Things have changed so fast!
