I certainly let it all out yesterday. I've never felt anything like it. I miss my best friend terribly and don't know how to fill the hole. She's the one person I thought I could totally trust and rely on and now I'm scared to ring her because she's not that person anymore. Or worse she might be the same person but has written me out of her life script for because her life id better without me.
Friday and Saturday nights are coming up. My two worst evenings and I have no plans at all...
