Took D to dinner & movie tonight. Had a great time. W called 3 times & texted once while in the movie. Probably misses D. We called on way home. W told me about her family & how sad they all are. I asked how she was holding up. She told me it was her worst day ever. Seems every time she has a bad day it is "Her worst day ever" . I just thought to myself "at least her worst day ever isn't about me today". W told me they made a slideshow of her cousin that past. There were a couple of pics of me in it. Said she got a copy and would show me when she got home. D was feeling a little under the weather so I told W and she recommended some medicine. Told her I already took care of that this morning but needed something for the night. She wasnt sure if we had anything at home so I stopped at the store & got something. Had to call her for recommendation as to what to get. I confess, she is better in that dept than I am. I guess I should have just figured it out myself but I question myself a lot & always want to be sure. I guess a 180 would just to be more decisive and not over analyze everything. Well, I guess I'll see what tomorrow brings. Enjoying time with D.
During the movie with D, I realized how good of a father I dont always need my W around. I think that was one of my problems, too clingy. It's just that we always had so much fun all together and enjoyed the same things. Maybe if W would have said something we could have figured it out sooner. I dont know. It's not hers or my fault. Maybe a little of both. Today I thought to myself that maybe this whole mess was necessary in order for me to see my faults and to become a better person. If it hadnt happened I would still be hurting my W. It was time for me to find me again. Im just sad that it had to hurt everyone that it has. Hope it works out.
