Hi Top5. Welcome to the DB board, you will get support for your sitch.
Understand that right now you are on moderation so your posts are reviewed before they are seen by others, and that can take a while.
In the mean time, keep posting. Use this as a journal if you need to, to vent or post observations or thoughts. Eventually others will begin to engage you on your thread.
You indicate you cheated. Understand that she is likely feeling very betrayed and hurt. She needs space. If she is to come out of this, it will be at her own pace.
In the mean time, you indicate you are doing 180s. These are 180s that you know are things that have bothered her? Or things that you want to change about yourself?
Also, what are you doing specifically to be more transparent about your life, because it will be a big deal for her to begin to trust you again.
