"Why is it so bad to tell her now how i feel?"

Because she doesn't care. Like everyone said, re-read DB or DR.

Right now it's all about her and what SHE feels. it [censored], but right now that's how you have to see things.

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER