is this the end....trying not to give up

[tonibertha]

@cadet:

Nice to hear from you. With regard to child support, I would have contacted the child support agency, but because she is going to my mum's for some time, I decided to wait until next year when she gets back. Hopefully while she is away, I will catch up on some of the expenses debt i am accruing now.

You are right, I have been really depressed for a while. As such i have had the 'can't think of anything i'd like to do or anyone i'd like to do it with' mentality for a while now. I am trying to get myself interested in doing things.

Things in my life right now:
- Looking forward to my mum visiting for 6 weeks from the end of July
- Started the Dukan diet
- Just got the braces i've wanted forever.
- Getting into cooking as a hobby (as part of my diet - a big 180 cos i always hated cooking)
- Trying to keep the house spotless ( a battle i'm currently losing)
- Cooking for DD (trying to fatten her up)
-Work
- Trying to study for an exam i've got in september (not going well..)

@Lio and Cadet:
- i am a member of almost 50 meetup groups but never feel like going. I went to the mom/baby groups once. They are usually in the mornings when i'm at work.
- Walking the baby: Did it once, felt exhausted. Tho i have taken her to the park a few times to play. She is so social.. we dance a lot at home.
- I go to church every couple of weeks (on the Sundays i'm not working). I will look into getting involved in church activities.
- Seems there is a library near my house that is open on Saturdays. will try to go there next weekend (working this weekend)
-I work in a hospital during the week, so it's not likely to be a GAL thing. Too much like work.

I really appreciate your input, guys. I feel i can be honest about my feelings on this BB, and that feels good. I am hoping to go to a picnic meetup thing tomorrow. Hopefully, i wont find an excuse not to go...