I spoke with Chuck last night, and he seemed to think that I was doing better than I thought I had been. His major advice was to be "more like tigger" and "less like eeyore." Which I suppose makes sense. However, he did feel that I had passed the "tests" that husband had set up for me recently.
So, last night, when husband left, I told him how excited I was about the new apartment and what new things I was going to get! I also told him how I was planning on cooking more, because I took out a bowl of something I had made from the fridge, and offered some to him. And I was really cheery and upbeat and when he left, I thanked him for all of his help, and I swear, husband lingered for a second and thanked me for something and said "you're welcome" and it really seemed sincere and different.
Chuck wasn't sure what was best to do when husband offered me help, but suggested "experimenting." Maybe accepting help sometimes and declining it other times, because I don't know if husband wants me to be more independent or if he likes to continue helping me.
Chuck said it was a bit of a weird situation because of how kind and generous husband was being, so I really need to think of how to measure success, which I think will be difficult. In the mean time, I am continuing to get a life!
I feel a little bit ok right now... I'm definitely leaning towards traveling for a year, which is something really exciting.
