The only way through it is to do it unfortunately.
It is normal not to want to be around her right now...
actually that is best. I said you will know what isn't working by your pain.
Pay attention to it. While it is in your head you won't be able to make meaningful strides toward your own goals of becoming the man you want to be and one your W would be a fool to leave.
And she may decide to continue being a fool. Hope? I can speak for me. It is very much linked to faith for me. It is not a plan for living your life. Hope for the best and prepare for the worst.
Faith is the word I used for myself in this.
Faith in myself took a while to gain.
Faith in this process I had to win by being here.
Faith that no matter the outcome this path would be bring me to my goals.
Faith that whatever my W chose to do it was the best thing for her and the best thing for me. She is only trying to find the same answers as you. She just may be looking in the wrong place.
Faith that if I looked at the truth and reality of the situation no matter how bad or that it didn't fit with what I WANTED...I could handle it through the grace of God and the support of my family, friends and my own courage.
This takes a long time to build Mab.
Which pieces are you missing?
Examine everything in your life. Take what brings you closer to your goal and kill the rest.
Remember when your anger comes not to let it define you or drive your choices.
Recognize it as cue to work on that which caused it.
This is hard Mab and this is where the less determined exit the way and get a one way ticket to Bitterville.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
