I know Vero - right! Looking back now, it's because - I think!! - that I am being more genuine in my outbursts - I know, that sounds odd. What does that mean? It means that when I get upset about something, I speak it and explain it, and I don't hold on to it forever and a day, and I don't go down the resentment route and I don't start taking digs at him or guilting him. I just say it clearly and with heart. Likewise, when I am happy about something, I also say so (very important!!).
A lot of this is about self-acceptance I'm realising (see my post to Hidden.
I don't know if that really is the case, but I sense that change in me. I don't feel like walking on eggshells anymore. Now it's just about me being me.
If I lose him well, I accept that's because he's no longer the one for me and it's time to move on. I think that's my attitude now. My time away with him will tell a lot! A week to go
