Ok I just re-read your thread and the first thing that jumps out at me is Post Partom Depression.
This is what concerns me about YOU.
You need to take care of yourself and look into the possibility that you might slip into your own depression.
In order to be the best MOM that you can be you must take care of yourself first.
Next in line will be the baby.
This time of life you are extremely vulnerable to this happening.
As far as your husband goes, you need to make sure he is helping you financially if possible with the baby. Other than that I would mirror his no contact and let him go. This is your only chance to get him back by letting go.
