Indecision and the affair continues (part 3)

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Thanks Rogerio,
I think H's life will come crashing down around him at some point. I feel like I need a huge break from relationship drama and he's got to be feeling a lot of it. He's trying to bridge directly from me to her thinking there won't be any problems.

The super annoying thing about my H's OW is that she's got a lot of money (from her father being a CEO of a large company and her husband's family founding a company you've all heard of). She is staying in the multimillion dollar house she lived in with her H. So, she has help with her kids and I'm sure would get help if my kids are ever there. H is also now full-time employed in her city...so he'll travel less for work...but he'll still need to come back here to see the kids (because I'm not going to move and make life easy for him)

H got his own place! His lease starts July 10. I am so happy that's finally happening. Our counselor thought that was a huge reality that had to happen.

I see my male friend tomorrow...I think it's been a month. Honestly, I'm spending most of my time with a few great girlfriends. Nothing serious for now and I have seen a couple guys at church that might be intersting to date at some point. But, I know I need some time to breathe and get stable again before I go into a new relationship.

The kids and I also got a new dog! She's been great and a good stress reliever. H actually really likes her too.

So, I have periods of sadness, fear, rejection and loneliness...but I'm surviving. I just try to keep focusing on myself and knowing that I have to experience the pain to get to the other side.