Where do I go from here?

[Cadet]

Welcome to DB

This is called cake eating and frankly as long as you permit it there is no reasaon for him to change.

I am not telling you to file for divorce, but you can not have a relationship with him when YOU are the other woman.

That is where you are at right now.

Have you read DR?

You need to get on with living your life "as if" he is never coming back.

The only person that you can control is YOU.

You can not change him he must do that on his own and he will not change until the PAIN of changing is less than the PAIN of staying the same.

You are on moderation right now so keep posting here until you get off of it.

100 posts per thread.

Knowledge is POWER.