Lost pt2

[dscl]

So it's been awhile not much new to report, don't know if OM is still in the picture and don't care.

W works at a national park and they have camping and rides for kids, D spent the weekend there with W and had a great time. W calls me today and says she has a meeting and can't drive D home and if I would mind picking her up, I said sure no problem. When I get there she want to show off our D to her boss(from past post, this is the boss who knows she is having an A) and ask if I want to go also. I give her a stare that could cut steel, she notices the mistake she made and says "That would be weird huh?" I said YES. So she takes D and I wait in the car for them to come back. I just don't understand how she would not see how this would be so disrespecfull ??

While sitting there I had a moment of clarity, I thought I NEEDED to be with my W but know I see that I wanted to be with my W I don't NEED to be with her.

And just like that, I start to feel the pressure that has been in my chest since this began lifted.