We are all controllers, I think we've all admitted that. What's at the root of control? Fear of the unknown, of something happening that we aren't prepared for and we will feel less than.

So we attempt to remove every unknown variable from our lives to quell our anxiety.

Over time we begin to look at H and think "hmmmm, do I still want you in my future" and wham-o suddenly we're in that land of the unknown. The anxiety rises and we don't know what variable to adjust.

This has been my lesson in relaxing into it.

Living in uncertainty.


Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss