one thing that i am becoming more aware of and which si really starting to irritate me is how much of my time is taken over this - i spend so much time on these board, or writing or journaling about it, and waste so much time on him. i know i have to do it for my own growth, but now i'm beginning to realize that i need to focus more on living and getting the real stuff done. need to jolt myself to that place faster
Oh baby girl that's where I got to when I wrote that post about being TIRED! I'd had this wonderful day with my son and the man consumed my thoughts. And just taking a day or two away from constantly journalling and analysing does wonders for you! really it does. you find yourself lost in a project or book or something!
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so the passion scares him - i've always sensed that - he's very reserved sexually - and my passion and willingness to be very open freaks him out
hmmmmm this really really resonates with me. Like you are saying H has always seen me as being very sexual very exotic very vibrant blah blah blah. He loves it! He once said everything about me oozes sex. (hee hee sorry if that's too much info) Anyway he told me that GF reminds him of this girl he had a crush on before we met. She was in their circle of friends and is very UNSEXY. So he says that I'm prettier, I'm more fun, and that he could listen to GF talk for ages about her line of work (boring). In the pictures I've seen her hair/makeup/accessories are ALL wrong. She's not the prettiest girl but she's not doing herself any favors either. My point? They think they have the safer option in a way. But come on...men don't want safe...no one wants safe!!!!!
Be sexy. Be confident. Be fun.
(2lbs of almonds? Sweet lord is that for the grande cake?)
