I wonder if the WAS knows what they’re doing to the love that the LBS has for them?Answer: I dont think they care to care. My W has told me over the last 2 weeks that shes second guessing her decision. That she feels the weight on the world on her shoulders, meaning that everyone is waiting on her making up her mind (me, kids even though they know nothing yet). That she feels she just has to make right decision because so many lives will be affected. How to make her understand that if she choose’s S or D that she may not have the chance to go to back and try the other choice if in fact she made wrong choice. I’m guessing life will teach her that and its not my place to teach her anything.
W told me the walls she put up aren’t all about me. She only wants to depend on herself. This confuses me. MLC maybe? I hope that any IC worth their salt would help her see that is she has to question herself about whether M is over, then there’s still a chance to work at it. I know she still has feelings, she told me this. Can staying for the children work into a good M?
I am confused, stressed and frankly angry at times. I continue the 180’s and being pleasant. W knows me so well after 28 yrs I know she still sees how frustrating this is for me at times. Some days I just want to go…. Right now the kids are keeping me focused and grounded.
