Him expecting that of you and someone he's had in his life for a short-time is interesting. Helps assuage his guilt.
yes. that's basically it. his way of saying - well , if they can be friends then iknow what i'm doing is okay.
about a month ago - when he said that on the phone to me i just stayed very quiet. then he added - i guess that's incredibly hurtful when i say that?
he knows. the point is NOT whether it does happen or not - the present thing is that it's just one of the things i'm having a hard time with - just like a lot of other stuff that has challenged me and that i need to detach from.
about trying to figure out what's behind it - the part you didn't understand. that's only for my own growth and learning. am seeing more and more that when i get triggered, there are things underneath that actually cause the triggering and when i explore those, then there is some new awareness, some new growth. it's for myself - not to satisfy his present needs of being allowed to think that he can have that right now.
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"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
