swimming with turtles and some guidance

[zig]

good grief labug - you didn't think i agreed did you?

he's mad to think that and he f'ing knows it.

especially when there's a child involved!! what kind of confused message would i be giving s?

i meant i'm struggling with the anger and hurt that arises within me to have him say that all the time, especially at this point. i'm not struggling with whether i should do it or not.

i started another post this morning but haven't submitted it - it has to do with my history and repeating patterns and i need to work through it a little more before i can post. suffice it to say - in my first marriage i was in present ow's position and we did stay good friends with his ex - and this is bringing up a lot of old stuff i have to work through

also i have to work through and figure out why i chose to be with 2 men in a row, who required that of me. interesting huh?

it's good - like i keep saying - another opportunity to resolve deep issues and hurts and get to a better place.

i'm beginning to see the pattern of the universe here. every last challenge i've had in this sitch, has brought up some issue from the past that i need to resolve.before each one would send me into a sort of panic as i dealt with it. now, i'm like oh yeah - bring it on, let's get this next one over with!!!!

keep me on track, girl - you're good for me

zig