swimming with turtles and some guidance

[ces67]

Hey Zig, wow. I take a little time off the boards and all kinds of stuff happens!

Hope you're doing well. It certainly sounds like your H is realizing all the stuff he's dealing with and at some level is having to face it.

I found it sadly amusing to read about him thinking himself a "loyal" person and having to look inside himself to see how his actios did not support that. Talk about turmoil for him. But that is needed. We don't grow in peaceful settings and he needs some internal turmoil to generate some thinking.

Sounds like you're getting your "roller coaster" legs pretty well. I had a talk with a friend of mine this morning. We were discussing how we have to stay diligent in our thinking. I know for me, I want to get to the point where focusing on the right things is easy but the reality is that its still a focused mental effort to keep my mind in a better place. By accepting that reality, I can do it. Its when I allow myself to indulge in unproductive thought habits that it [censored] me in. Its like I want a little break and to be honest, I can't let myself have that break because its a slippery slope.

It sounds like you are creating a situation where excitement and sexual energy are now focused on you rather than OW. What an amazing turn of events. Its very impressive that you can keep yourself upbeat and detached. Very good for you!

Take care this week and hope things continue to go well for you!