Hi! I haven't been posting much lately, but was struck by your comment about how you don't like your XW as role model. I've had that fear too; it was a huge fear of mine for several years during the separation and the divorce. Only recently have I realized that kids are very perceptive. My kids are both turning into great kids, and they have some of their dad's good traits and some of mine and all has worked out well so far. My D12 is doing theatre camp this month too-she will be an Oompah Loompah in Willy Wonka Jr. this Thursday and Friday. I can't wait!
That is great about how you let your D13 choose what she wanted to do. I think as kids get older that becomes more important. Sounds like you are a good dad. And I truly believe you will look forward to every day again and your best days are right now and ahead of you. I love the goal about letting God lead their lives; I'm working on that as a goal for myself too!