Despite my 180s & GAL - which my XW has noticed, we don't seem any closer to reconciling. Its been a crazy, lonely, sad 18 months.... 12 month deployment to Afghanistan,huge paycut from my civilian job, Divorce & the death of my Mom recently. I'm hanging onto hope...but she seems so distant sometimes. We were having dinner every night,walks, going to the gym together...so many things that we did when we were married ( except physical contact & she lives somewhere else now).We scaled back on the contact because it felt like she was "playing house"...and her C said that she won't reconcile if she doesn't miss what she had...seperation and distance might be best. I'm making the changes for me ( & my Boys)but I can't give up the hope that she will come home. I'm still so very lonely & sad. I've been seeing a C almost weekly - & I'm told that everything I feel is normal, that I'm actually coping very well with all of this %&^#. I'm in good shape, educated, a decent looking guy. I've had women ask me out...but avoided dating this soon.My ex tells me to get on with my life-- So,recently, I've gone out with an attractive successful woman a few times...kind of dating- She is aware of my feelings etc. & describes it as "friends with benefits".... I was married for 17 years, I never had friends like that before! She knows that I'm in love with me xw. I'm worried that this will destroy my chances of reconciling & perhaps my ex really doesn't mean it when she says "get on with your life and see people"...She tells me that she isn't seeing anyone yet. I need to stop trying to mind-read. I just feel like I'm stuck in limbo. GAL, 180s..but still lonely and sad. Any input..I know so many are probably feeling the same way?
(F.K.A. Broken422)
US 40's M 17,T 19 2 BOYS 13,16 Divorced 4/2012 11/2011 W SAID SHE WANTS D
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