I think I CHOSE to commit myself to my H and thought he was committed in return. Thought we were best of friends and more. So "soulmate" was really CREATED. Choices...
I do not recognize him today. Empty shell, quite honestly. But he appears happy and there is nothing I can do to change what has happened.
Have a week home alone - S is at workouts at college. It actually feels good. I know that I need rest and healing and that will come soon enough. The light at the end of the tunnel is closer than it was. My oldest D's wedding is in 19 days! I am focused on work, the wedding, and getting my son ready to leave. My middle D has moved 4 hours away for a few months to work an internship. She has just gotten into a relationship and she wants me to meet him before she brings him to the wedding. Looks like I will drive up there for the 4th and spend some time with them before the wedding madness.
Not a bad life right now....if only I could win the lottery:)
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
