It has been really hard the last few days. Husband and I have been talking to each other quite often, although it is really only about how the move is going to work, who is going to take what, etc.
Our joint accounts are gone and we have individual accounts. We're figuring out how to change the car over. I'm moving out next week. He has been really generous and has basically packed up my stuff for me and is helping me move. He bought me some new stuff (toaster, utensils, etc) and has been very kind.
He is angry because of the way my mother treated both of us when we were married. He thinks that I basically did what she felt I should do and I never stood up for him or for us, which is true, but I didn't want to deal with it. For instance, she was the one who told me to basically take the money out of the account, and he feels that I can't think for myself. I think I agree that I am easily persuaded to think a certain way sometimes.
I guess I will be going back to the old apartment to do laundry, so I will see husband sometimes. I don't know what to do at this point when I interact with him unless I just keep doing what I'm doing. I haven't mentioned anything relationship-wise once. His mom told me that he said he still wants to remain friends after this ends.
I can't see things changing and I can't see anything turning around. I've definitely been out and getting a life and I do feel better than I would have otherwise, but at this point I don't know if trying to save my relationship with him is even worth it. I don't think he will ever see that there's a chance it could work.
