Had a great trip with D. She even said on the way out of town how she has never taken a trip with just me. She wanted to stay longer. W wanted to know when we would be back. Gave her an estimate then a couple of updates during the drive back. When we were getting close I got a text from her asking how far out we were. So I told her. When we got home W wasn't even there. D asked where she was. I told her I didn't know and she would have to ask her. So I texted W and told her we were home and said she was on her way. I would have figured she would have been there waiting for her. When D asked where she was she said at lunch. I don't understand.
I know that her family is dealing with the death of her cousin but I just can't stop thinking about my W telling me she met someone. And why does she keep talking to me about personal stuff if she has a friend to talk to now? I know I need to detach more but I'm also trying to build back trust and let her know that I'm there for her. Also it looks like I have to compete against someone else. And now I also feel like she is lying to our D about her whereabouts. I get really angry sometimes but I just keep it in.
Last night after I unpacked I told W that our D probably needed some dinner so she decided to go pick up some food. She asked if I wanted anything. Puzzled me. I asked D and she just looked and smiled and said yes. So I said sure. W then left to go get it and I stayed with D. So now she's not there when D gets home and leaves an hour later to go get food. Is it just me or does it seem like she's walking away from D too? Anyway, I decided to just wait until she got back and take my food to go. When she got back I thanked my D for our great trip and told W thanks for dinner and took it to my brothers house to eat.
W will be leaving town sometime this week to go to the funeral. Not sure when or for how long. Might be for three to five days. I'm kind of hoping it's the longer trip. She is really making me angry now. Probably because I love her and don't recognize her. This seems like its turning away from what I did to put us in this situation and now into what she is doing to deal with it. Help!
