i know how you feel, mab1. we all do. you're in the beginning of your journey and you can't see how it will end. it's frustrating and frightening. it's out of your control and that's hard to deal with.

so, start there. learn how to deal with not having control. learn what you can control and what you can't. you can control your actions and reactions.

you can learn how to take your mind from what is not yours to control to what is yours to deal with; patience, self-control, personal inventory.

right now you just want this all to stop and for it to be settled. but if you don't do the work on yourself, you'll just go through this again. work on what you can do to make yourself a better person.

"...tell me but how can I turn this into a positive and a chance to grow?"


that's how...start on YOU.

M:63
H:53
S:41, SS:28, SS:25, SD:23
M:15
T:16

Bomb:12/17/11, "I think we should go our separate ways."
H moves to his mother's house, 4/1/12
12/21/12: H moves back home, piecing