Thanks guys. I'm finding it really tough to stay positive and hopeful especially in light of biased but well meaning advice from friends and family and the regular injections of "I'm done" which I seem to be getting from my wife. The email I had to send about bills and stuff also hasn't helped much because it just seemed so depressingly final.
Do her actions suggest that the LRT isn't appropriate? She moved out, she's getting a flat, wants separate lives, is full of anger at me and says she isn't bothered if I move abroad? I'll give her plenty of time and space for now but I think it will only serve to focus her anger on me for 'putting her in this position'.
Just went to see Prometheus, talk about being full of symbolism regarding beginnings & endings. I'm not sure "in the cinema noone can see you falling to bits" is a tag line they really hoped for but it certainly fit in my case! I started during the dark knight trailer, which we are both looking forward to and then got worse through the film.
As for being the man I aspired to be, I've never really aspired to do anything for myself. I wanted a good marriage, a nice house somewhere warm and a loving family. I thought I was 1/3 of the way there but I think I'm rapidly sliding back to square 1. Career-wise I still have no idea and I'm now in my late 30's. I definitely put myself on the back burner to support my wifes aspirations but I didn't really mind that. Maybe all this is a large part of the issue...
