I am five months out from D Day , my anniveraty to boot. I was not strong enough, to walk away on day 1. I convinced myself I would just be his friend. It seems he is still playing the same game. He wants a wife at home, and a mistress 30 minutes away, so hisnt ready to give her up. My husband did 2 tours in Iraq, and when he came home 4 years ago, I could tell he was not same. He admitted to me he felt bad for having to kill them, and he is sad for what he did to me. He wakes up frm night terrors, has post traumatic stres disorder and a Traumatic brain injury. He is getting out of the military in the next few months. I have spent the last 5 mmths stuck thim limbo. He tells me he loves me, and as hard as it is I wll not say it back. I conpletely understand he wanted an escape from his demons, but finding another person isn't remedy. There is a lot to this than just the affair. I can't analyze him, or snoop. I just leave him along in the spare room and do my own thing. I love this man, and still feel hope for us, which keeps busy. I feel invisible sometimes, and like I love someone who doesn't love me like he should. I need advice on what to do? I went to se a lawyer back in March, but to be honest I fel my H will never divorce me, and I hope we can get through this. ITs hard to be around friends, who wat to tell me I have doormat on my forehead. I don't know which appraoch to use? DO I do the movie or cancel it and move on withot him. Or do I just show him I am here, and listen when he needs a friend to. He came back homeand sleeps on the airmatress in the gueset room, and he spends mot of his life at her plae. They fight a lot, but I am lost on what to do. I miss him and love him.. wish he would fight for me.
