jks, i'm a little late to this thread, but my feelings mirror yours so closely. my H isn't and hasn't had a PA, but our mindsets are so similar. (i bawled my eyes out when i read about you watching We Bought A Zoo. I just watched that for the second time last week and felt exactly the same way).
i'm pulling for you.
M:39 H:39 S/15, S/11 (both adopted in 2004, my step-nephews, now our kids) M10, T13 Multiple bombs. Latest one 5/4/12, our 10th anniversary. Still living together and sharing a bed up until 7/18/12.
