H left for Indiana tonight for his grandmother's funeral. He comes back Wednesday. I leave on Wednesday for a fun trip to NYC with my cousin, coming home Saturday. We won't see one another for a week, which I don't think has ever happened in 13 years of being together. I think the timing of all of this is very good....I think the time apart will be good for both of us (though I'm missing him a lot right now). I gave him a hug goodbye, we kissed briefly, I told him I loved him and to give my love to his family. He didn't say ILY back, which was upsetting, and while I knew I probably should not have said it anyway, I don't think anyone should leave for a long trip without knowing they are loved at home. (This goes back to a bad car accident my mom had several years ago....another long story, not for this board right now).
This is just a testament to my lack of patience with this whole process. We again had a pretty nice evening, got along, talked, laughed. I feel like we are friends, and I can't understand why trying to re-grow this relationship is more difficult than splitting up. I'm sure I'm going to get chastised on here for not detaching more. The week WILL get better as it goes on, of that I am absolutely sure. Tonight is hard.
M:39 H:39 S/15, S/11 (both adopted in 2004, my step-nephews, now our kids) M10, T13 Multiple bombs. Latest one 5/4/12, our 10th anniversary. Still living together and sharing a bed up until 7/18/12.
