That resentment of theirs is getting old, I must say! I am sensing in me a desire to change this routine.
I don't know how you do it Scared - keeping it all to yourself/friends. Are your friends still hanging in there with you? For me, I think one has pretty much given up on me, and another is hanging in there but - I don't know. I sense my vibe is getting tiring too.
After the email exchange earlier this week, I have distanced (emotionally) myself from my H.
However, before I make any major decisions, I am going on holiday to Greece. My H decided to come as well - even after all that!! I'm at a total loss about him.
Otherwise, I am keeping myself busy with work now, and friends. I think this whole thing is affecting my ability to make new friends. I feel too serious or heavy or something. I want some happiness and fun and to let my hair down. I seem to have forgotten how to do that lately.
I went out with some friends on Thursday and there was a new girl there who was so happy because she was preparing to get married in August. OMG! I can't imagine what I came across like, but I was warning her of the pitfalls. Poor girl!
