yes you are still working things out. But among other things you are doing well, you are not rushing TO DO "something"..."anything" b/c the papers won't necessarily give you closure or get you moving forward.
Not sure what will, but it seems to me that's your choice, right? I mean, will the taking of a pen and signing of a paper, do it for you? Will a gavel banging?
I'm a L and I get a lot of symbolism from things like that.
For ME, the signature and or a gavel banging (not likely to hear it, btw)
WOULD probably be enough of a "ritual" to make me "feel" something had changed.
What do you think would help you?
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