It's been awhile since I've posted on my own sitch.
The week with my sister went very good. I kinda took 25's Italy's trip mentality - and GAL'ed the crap out of it.
Spent way more money than I should have.
This included my very first tattoo. It's something that I've wanted since I was 18.. and I finally got it. I was always made fun of by my wife for wanting it - so it was a very emotional day for me.
Went to Vegas and saw a cirque show. Bought a bunch of new clothes including these super fantastic cowboy boots. I seriously can't wait to go line dancing in them.
Introduced my sister to all my friends and family. Went line-dancing, hit up a few cool bars, and spent the evening with some people who have greatly benefited my life in the past year.
It was a pretty awesome trip. My bucket list/goal list is dwindling... so I think it's time for some new goals.
Besides being awesome, my trip was very interesting..
My sister has always been the strong one helping me, but there was quite a role reveral when she was here.
Here she depended on me a whole bunch. She was very shy around my friends. She wouldn't line dance.
In vegas - I had to drag her to the fashion outlet to buy a dress.
And at points I would get very frustrated. Mostly because it took me awhile to "see" that she was going through something.
She wasn't very communicative in regards to that.
Also - she got into a fight with her boyfriend over the phone. He's a little insecure and was passive aggressive with her.
There was ALOT of assumptions.. there was ALOT of making the other person guess.
I got really upset by the fight. It's been a LONG time since I've heard that, and it's not how I communicate anymore.
So it was very educational in alot of ways. Reminded me that I have alot to work through and will for a very long time.
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Things with the w is quiet. Taxes are done. I'm still working on getting my own health and car insurance.
No texts, no phone calls, no emails.
It's peaceful which I appreciate.. but always sad as well.
My schedule is a little hectic right now but I'm really wanting to email her first about signing the papers.
I'm not really sure why -
As much as I don't know her anymore and we have never spoken socially/hung out in almost a year, I still don't want this D.
But at the same time - I feel like I need to be the one to initiate the signing og the papers so I can move on - get it through my head that it's over and live.. completely.
Guess I'm still working this out....
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
