A helpful and well painted picture Accuray, thank you. Right now I feel like I am just going through the motions. W dropped the kids off for the weekend and she stuck around for just a couple minutes, the typical routine. I caught myself doing more of the light chit chat . Looking back on it, I should have zipped it. Oh well, no need to be over critical of myself, just something to remember for the future.
I’ve been doing some reminiscing which isn’t very helpful but it’s tough not to do at times. I really hate this!!! Over the years I’ve always told myself no matter how bad things are, I would NEVER be the one in the marriage to initiate the separation. Even though I didn’t initiate it, we were in a poor marriage and change needed to happen. I just wish it didn’t have to come to this. But it has, I have to deal with it and face it head on and keep a positive attitude (easier said than done).
Before the separation I would see all these single parents and say to myself that I am sure glad I am not in that situation. I would tell myself that I would never be a single dad and I was so proud that we were a intact family, wow have things changed, look at me now. I know, self pity isn’t helpful. I need to remember that I CAN CHANGE.
