hi yc,
i can see a lot of my H in your H's email. he's, more or less, said the same things to me. he's trying to figure out if we can be happy together again.

what i can't do is give him "more of the same" that drove him away. most of what drove him away was my anger, bitterness, and withdrawal from him.

if he gets any of that from me now, he pulls back and it reenforces his decision that he would be happier without me.

i have lots of anger about our current situation. i talk a lot about it with a friend or with myself but i can't show him anger.

if i'm angry, i don't communicate with him. i first try to talk myself through it and calm myself down. most of my anger is a result of a fear i have and how i blame him for it.

M:63
H:53
S:41, SS:28, SS:25, SD:23
M:15
T:16

Bomb:12/17/11, "I think we should go our separate ways."
H moves to his mother's house, 4/1/12
12/21/12: H moves back home, piecing