thanks again vera - really appreciate all of you supporting me here

that's what i am telling myself - you made the call, not trust that she will know what to ask and you will give the correct answer. that i know my sitch and i don't have to remember it all at once!!

h brought s over an hour ago .. he wanted to borrow the lawn mower and offered to mow as he always does. i've adamantly refused all these months. today i just let him. didn't make a deal of it at all.

when he stopped to say bye before he left i thanked him and said what a luxury to have you do it,

told him theres' a block party downtown that s and i are going to with our friends. didn't ask if he wanted to come. he said himself, maybe i'll join you guys. i just replied, i'll text you the details when she lets me know.

didn't expect him to say that - was just giving the info - he's done that when he's known about something

so i t was a 180 for me to let him do something here at the house. also had to tell him my car was giving trouble and i have to take it in. i was a bit concerned as i have to drive 2 hrs on monday . he offered that we could trade out cars on sunday so i could take his truck. i just said great. inside i'm quaking a bit, because i've only driven his truck a couple of times and it's a stick shift. damn i'm brave!!

hope you guys all have a great day
off to work w/ the intern

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me 46 H 38
M10yrs T 11
S10
BD ow 8/11
h filed 9/25/12


"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"