Thunderclouds gather in the distance

[optimist]

Thanks Colleen, I do not think I am especially brave, but at this point I'll take whatever compliments come my way...

Well, yet another day came and went with no news. My daughter woke up rather antsy this morning, with her little stuffy nose but no fever. I told her she could stay home and not go to school (she has half day pre-K), but she chose to go anyway.

I've thought a lot about Ellie's suggestion about being out of town when and if he comes back... but my gut tells me it is not a good idea. Part of what lead to this mess is my infinite ability to go my own way in pursuit of my personal and proffessional interests, and what you can call my total independence... He does not need to be reminded that I can move on without him. He knows that well. While he was busy messing up his life and our M, I built a sucessful bussiness and took care of a wonderful big girl.

Somehow I feel that going away this particular weekend would be a childish gesture, a 'you did that to me, I'll do this to you' type... I feel it is more dignified to wait this out and then make my moves, calmly and definitely on Monday.

I may be wrong, maybe a more astute approach is indicated. Maybe I am not machiavellic enough. But somehow I feel that in this particular matter and with so many things at stake for my D and me, I have to act with honesty and transparency. For myself, so that I do not have any regrets down the line, no doubts and no 'what ifs'...