5'9" and 120 lbs.? you could model! your weight gain is probably muscle. it's heavier than fat. you sound as if you're in great shape. glad you're getting your confidence back!
Ha, ha... the weight gain is actually because I started eating again. I still don't eat a ton but when I found out about H's PA I couldn't eat anything for days. I looked ill. I didn't realize it until I had my picture taken with my sweet niece and when I looked at the picture more closely, I felt like I didn't recognize myself anymore.
So it kinda bugs that H thinks I look skinnier because my focus has been to gain weight and start looking healthy again. But whatev.
I called a L today to find out exactly how much it was going to be to file. $750. Which may be totally doable for me. (My mom may just help me out for the time being and then I'd pay her back if I end up getting a job or with any photography jobs that I get.) He was very helpful.
I then called H because I have no money and I had no idea if he was going to transfer money into my acct or not. So I asked him what his plans were moneywise. He said he was just trying to save up enough money to pay the guys he has coming over to the house to fix things.
He was VERY nice to me. He kept saying, how much do you need? I didn't really know and I felt bad. I was literally on the verge of telling him that I'm filing for D but when he's so nice to me its hard for me to go in that direction. How is this the same man that's sleeping with another woman?? I seriously do not understand how he can be so nice to me and give me money and act like nothing's wrong between us and then just continue on like he is.
We had some pauses in our conversation and I was kind of allowing it to see if he would bring anything up, but he didn't. He just asked questions about paying the bills since I was the one that used to do it all. I was happy and friendly throughout our conversation and I was the first to end it.
He kills me. I really had no idea how much I would fall for this man when I first met him in High School. It's so crazy to think back on those days and how innocent and naive we were.
Life goes on.
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.
