There was an interesting development last night. About 3-4 weeks ago two friends of mine who didn't know each other at the time felt prompted by God to reach out to my W. I encouraged both of them to pray about and I got the two of them together. I pretty much stayed out of it. If they felt moved to contact my W, I'd let them do what they were going to do, and the less I knew of the specifics, the better. Of these two friends, one of them has never met my W, and the other one knows her. One friend wrote a letter and mailed it. The other friend sent her FB messages and a friend request.
Last night, the friend who knows her and sent the FB messages and friend request received a confirmation on the friend request. She followed with a nice message thanking him for his messages. A dialogue ensued.
She has definitely noticed I am a much different person than I was. She did say she didn't see us getting back together. My friend is perceiving fear on her part. I'll have to be honest, there would be fear on my part, too - I wouldn't want anything to revert back to the way it was. She also said she was very tired and worn out.
Anyway my friend and W have been through some severe rough patches themselves - EA, PA, serious money issue, talk of D, etc. There is a chance they may go out to dinner - the 3 of them - just to talk. My W had said it would make her cry, but it would probably be a good thing.
OK - there it is. It could amount to be absolutely nothing. It could something I look back on as dent in the wall, so to speak. For now, it's not changing anything I'm doing. It's in God's hands. I have to let it ride.
