unbidden and brit - your offers to buy a shawl. cripes, when i read them, i fell apart - started sobbing! at first i didn't even know why i was crying so hard - yes i know hardly the reaction one expects when someone offers to buy your shawls!! no, i don't usually do that, grin.
but what came up afterwards was interesting - especially since your offers triggered off this awareness in me - and so it was a double gift from you both.
the emotion that came up was a inner protest - how could they offer that, i'm not worthy of such incredible generosity . and then as i worked through it - the deeper truth - that i don't feel worthy - that i've never felt worthy of the gifts in my life - and of course - there's another thing to work on - really hard.
i AM worthy - even of incredible generosity from people i've never even met.i am worthy and deserving to be happy, to want my marriage to work out, to want my work to be successful, to be deserving of love and support and on and on
so to say that i was touched - is beyond what words can say - to offer to buy my shawls, when you guys are scraping together to pay for your own coaching sessions - well, there's a generosity of heart that's seldom experienced.
and i feel worthy enough to say thank you.
don't feel obliged to buy - especially if they are not your style.
my dilemma though is posting how you can get them. i've just started my store on etsy (type in shawlsbyzia), but my prices are much higher there, and i would prefer to sell to you through my email as i have already been doing for months - as i can give you the price i sell them at locally. its gmail with the same name as above, all one word. also that way you can custom choose what you want
so whichever you would like - if you want to stay anonymous, you could just open a temporary account with the same name you use here - that way i'll know who you are - then i'll email you pics and you can choose - you can also look at them on the etsy site.
feel a bit weird writing all that here- as if i'm soliciting - which i hope no one thinks is intentional. mods - please let me know if this is totally not okay! i apologize in advance if it's not
thanks again all of you. i hadn't realized how many had used a coach - there's not too much reference to it in the posts
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"if i could define enlightenment briefly, i would say it is the quiet acceptance of what is"
