LRT - Checking Progress

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Definitely going to keep it slow, which would be a 180 for me. I tend to pounce on things.

Gotta remind myself to keep it slow and have no expectations, no matter how good it feels.

Keeping up with the GAL as it makes me feel so much better about myself. I look back on the old me and feel shame. All I wanted to do was watch TV and mess around on the computer or XBox. Now, all I want to do is workout or be outdoors doing things.(180) I bought a new computer when this started and I hardly use it(180). I hardly watch TV anymore.(180) I can see where the W lost interest in me.

Here is my fear and I would appreciate advice:
W invites me to do something. I say no. And it isn't saying no as a game. I haven't worked out in a few days because I have been doing things with the W. I really want to workout and do some GAL for me.

The fear is that the W wants to do something with me. I decline so she calls OM. By saying no, I open the door for OM. It is almost like playing defense. If she is with me, she can't be with him.

Someone whip out a 2x4 and pound that thought out of my head

Don't give me any advice like "If she really wanted to be with you, she wouldn't call the OM". My W still doesn't know what she wants and we are not at the stage where we are piecing or rebuilding. We are still discovering each other again.