Something The Boys And I Have Noticed

[tadpole1025]

AJ, Wen, 25 and Snodderly thank you. I know it is time to move on, get a life, let her go, detach and all the other good stuff. I've done better at some of it, but I guess I still need some work.

I've had a few days for it to sink in and I've had dreams about the wedding the past two nights. The funny thing is, she can't understand why some of our boys are not happy for her.

I guess this whole MLC thing would have been so much easier on me if we had had a bad marriage, but we did not. She just became a different person and so self-absorbed.

As for MLC, everyone says it stems from depression. Well, they sure don't act depressed do they?

Yesterday, she got into a long argument via text with S19. She wanted to know why he is not talking to her. He told her that he doesn't accept it and will never accept it. Also told her that he will never meet OM. She said that she wants him to be happy for her then went on a long tirade about how I didn't make her happy anymore, didn't make her a priority, how she tried for years to make the marriage work blah blah f*cking blah. I guess he finally quit talking to her because he and I were bowling and he told her to leave him alone.

She also said how wonderful life is and that she is happy with OM or without OM. (Seems to me that if she loved him, she wouldn't be happy without him.)

I know this can be blamed on MLC, but I guess I am having a hard time just standing back and watching how self-absorbed she is. It is really pretty bad.

As for me, I DO like my freedom, but things are still rough. I was thinking the other day: It is one thing that she left me, but I guess the way that she did it is what hurts the most.

Just venting again.

Tad