was in a text convo with MIL and she made a joke and I made one back and she said I literally have tears in my eyes you made me laugh so hard very well said.
And I thought yeah, because this is the first time in ages that I haven't been worried about the right thing to say, hoping you still like me etc, I've just been me.

Today I randomly thought I have no idea what's going to happen in my life in a few months or few years and I'm okay with that....this is a Brit I've never before. amazing!